Inside Job

If we can all try to be more present in the moment and remember what we all really want and desire.  To feel more fulfilled with love and joy and have compassion for ourselves and others. To move away from darkness and lean towards the light.  In really listening to one of my favorite bands this morning….I really felt the words.  Especially to this song because we all connect and come from the same light.  I call it divine source that reminds me to continue to have faith and when I get off track reminds me that transformation happens first from the inside out.
Inside Job by
Underneath this smile lies everything
All my hopes and anger, pride and shame
Make myself a pact not to shut doors on the past
Just for today I am free
I will not lose my faith
It’s an inside job today
I know this one thing wellâ?¦
I used to try and kill love. the highest sin
Breathing insecurity out and in
Searching hope, I’m shown the way to run straight
Pursuing the greater way for all human light.
How I choose to feel is how I am.
How I choose to feel is how I am.
I will not lose my faith
It’s an inside job today
Holding on, the light of night
On my knees to rise and fix my broken soul
Again
Let me run into the rain
To be a human light again
Let me run into the rain
To shine a human light today
Life comes from within your heart and desire
Life comes from within my heart and desire
Life comes from within your heart and desire
Songwriters: Eddie Vedder / Mike Mccready
Inside Job lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group

Now is the Time for Change

As I stumbled upon several post about the increase in suicides on news outlets and social media again feeling extremely nudged to do my part and share.  As I continue on my path towards healing trying to figure out all that led up to my breaking point, realizing yes ignoring signs that maybe I was taking on too much, maybe I was putting everyone else’s needs first ahead of mine, putting off my dreams to take care of “responsibilities” (forgetting that I am aware when you have true faith….the universe has your back.  We can have the lives we want without feeling constantly depleted), if I could have just asked for help a little sooner or if I didn’t have people around me that cared so much about me to notice I know where I would have been today (I’ve heard the emergency signals for months now knowing they were warning me).  Because I would have kept going had my family not stepped in or even worse been given an even bigger wake up call that I couldn’t have come back from.  I was lucky but many aren’t.  This was something I had written in October 2017 in-regards to the crisis at the moment that was in the news now realizing there is always going to be something that breaks my heart and the hearts of so many if we continue down this path of self-denial, self-destruction (call me dramatic but how dark does it need to get, how young does the next person need to be reported on the news that took their own life because we aren’t facing what is in front of us).  Something is seriously wrong when the world keeps ignoring that we need change.

NOW IS THE TIME FOR CHANGE:

I want to take this moment to acknowledge and speak out about all the chaos that is going on in our world lately.  At times I’ve felt it’s almost too much to bare, out of control…. Not sure if I have any words of wisdom but want to say I’m sorry to all that are suffering, grieving, struggling, traumatized, trying to figure out how to move forward, my prayer is that at some point you feel a glimmer of hope again.

It’s easy for me to not turn on the news and pretend everything is fine in my safe little bubble but even in doing that I feel the sadness, fear and uncertainty of the world.  Real emotions due to real events.  I feel this sadness and know I must do my part, this is why I was called upon.  So I do my part by praying, donating time, items and money where I can.  But also knowing the more I continue with my practices of going within connecting with my higher power, I can create change, a ripple effect and the more of us that do this one day we will see less of this craziness.  Knowing we are all one, even if I wasn’t directly impacted it still hurts my heart.

The universe has been telling me over and over again Now is the time for humanity to rise up to continue as a species that yes we must all come together in communities but we all need to turn inward to be able to truly help others, we must help ourselves, heal ourselves, be mindful, begin to live with the intention that we can turn darkness into light, fear into love, despair into hope.  Where there is hope there is change.  We have become a society that is moving way to fast, focused on how to achieve success by how much we can do or how much we have but it’s people who matter.  And it will always go back to love…but how can we love others when we hate ourselves, when we can’t forgive ourselves and others, when we hold onto resentment, anger and judgement and have so much fear due to feelings of lack and scarcity.

I’ve learned that war, violence, hatred, abuse, etc. all comes of a scarcity mentality, a fear based thinking world.  Yes there are real issues right now that are creating fear.  I am not taking away from the parents that lost a child or a child that lost their parents, their friends, brothers and sisters all I can say is I am so sorry that you have to endure this deep level of pain and my prayers are that you can get through this with the support, help and love from your communities and loved ones.

But if we can begin to think and feel as one and understand the oneness, that there is no separation between you and me, “We” are here together as one!  Now is the time we must unite and come together with the intention to create change.  Individually we become mindful and love intentionally with the same goal of love and peace, change can happen.  It may begin by going within healing our spirit, the inner child within all of us for humanity to begin to realize we are all brothers and sisters no matter our skin color, race, sexual preference, religion or social status.  What we do onto others we do onto ourselves.  So open your heart, stay heart centered, come together as a community with love and we can rise above all…..as one mind, one love, one heart.  Come together now for now is the time for us and for future generations to come, to move further away from darkness and closer to the light.  Now is the time for change!

You are special

I am sending this as a reminder to myself and anyone else that is having a difficult time (a re-post of something I had posted a while back; a reminder that You are Special).  I thought I had gone through a transformation last year when I began to awaken and I did but the one thing I did not do is listen to the guidance that was given to me.  I did not listen to my heart, I did not fully do the work of going within to release all fear, doubt, worry and negativity that was stuck deep within me.  When I’m ready to fully share my story about how from one day to the next I went from a spiritual high to the next stopped completely in my tracks, flipped upside down, engulfed by fear.  The story of how my complete breakdown has begun to lead to a breakthrough….a transformation into my true authentic self (not quite there yet but the time is NOW to share).

Thank God for my tools and practices for once I could finally put a sentence together on my own and begin to kind of understand what was happening that I had been living in fear this whole time, pretending to the outside world everything was okay and had begun to move away from love for myself.  I began to use the tools I had learned but it wasn’t until I fully surrendered to the process and admitted to myself that I have no idea how to do this.  I believe we heal in others what still needs to be healed in ourselves and the biggest thing that has helped me is going back into my notebooks and reading the messages I had been given.  It was as if my future self was telling me the whole time what would happen if I didn’t listen, didn’t fully release and live from a place of authenticity.  These words of encouragement to help me through this extremely painful time.  It’s crazy because no one physically died but I feel a part of me did which I know will be a good thing one day but right now in the thick of it, it is my own personal internal Hell of old emotions, lies I believed in for so long, a false self…it’s scary, crazy and I don’t even have the right words right now to explain what I’m going through but all I know is I have to share the messages of encouragement that I have been given over the past year or so.  For if I can help one person with a positive message that has begun to help me heal then than I know I’ve done more than enough.

YOU ARE SPECIAL:

You will continue to raise your vibration, every time you go within it gets higher, your presence becomes stronger, we become more and more connected to you, it will seem so easy to connect.  Your gifts are blossoming.  We are here to help you and yes you will be able to help yourself and others.  As long as you are open to receiving and open to allowing there is no prayer to big that we are not willing to guide and help you with.  You have the power and with our help we will help you create whatever your heart desires as long as it stays in alignment with your true self.  You are worthy, continue to work on your relationship with yourself, continue to love yourself, take time for yourself without guilt and you will begin to see the miracles, actual miracles happen before your eyes.

You are special, remember that, repeat it out loud, You are special!  God has a special plan for you, you are unique, you are able to create beautiful loving magic.  Love yourself unconditionally just like we do, without judgement, you are perfect in the eyes of God.  Yes everyone has things in their life they can improve on but you are now aware of those things that may be holding you back and when you are ready we will help you to release those habits that no longer serve you.

Continue to learn, listen to the positive teachers that you’ve been listening to.  In your own unique way, you to can be a teacher and we can help you.  Be proud of how far you have come, once you removed the negative, self-destructive, inner chatter and replaced it with positive thoughts, added a daily meditation routine, added a daily way to move your body, began self-care and knew you were worth it, change happened, life shifts and it begins with the thoughts, there has to be a better way, life has to be better than this, I am going to make it better for myself, I am ready to move out of ordinary and live extraordinary.  Once that shifts takes place there is no going back.  Once you open yourself up to a beautiful life of ease and flow and stop living from fear, creativity begins to flow easily.

Miracles

I very much believe in miracles and know we are all worthy of living a life full of them.  I have watched miracles touch the lives of people around me, as well as my own life.  Pray for miracles and watch how they begin to show up in your daily life.

The following are quotes taken from the book a Course in Miracles:

Miracles are everyone’s right; Miracles are healing; Miracles are a kind exchange (expressions of love, there being more love both to the giver and the receiver).

Prayer is the medium of miracles; It is a means of communication of the created with the creator. Through prayer love is received and through miracles love is expressed.

Miracles are thoughts; Miracles bear witness to truth; Each day should be devoted to miracles; Miracles transcend the body.  They are sudden shifts into invisibility, away from the bodily level. That is why they heal.

A miracle is a service.  A way of loving your neighbor as yourself.

Miracles reawaken the awareness that the spirit, not the body is the alter of truth, leads to healing power of the miracle.

You are a miracle, capable of creating in the likeness of your creator, everything else is your own nightmare and does not exist, Only the creations of light are real.

Miracles represent freedom from fear.

A miracle is never lost, it may touch many people you have not even met and produce undreamed of changes in situations of which you are not ever aware.

Self Love

When you stop looking for happiness outside of yourself, it’s amazing how you feel and what you notice.  It’s like opening your eyes and seeing the world for the first time, it’s a feeling similar to your first crush or when you begin to fall in love with someone except this person is now “YOU”.  You’re excited, feel ecstasy at times, true bliss.  It super seeds any love that you would have for anyone else, even the love for your child.  It sounds crazy, I know!  But it’s great because you can now love them even deeper (without feeling annoyed by some of their behavior).  You don’t feel like your making sacrifices, which builds resentment, you  have more to give because you are now more present.

It’s as if time expands.  On the other side there is no time, so you let go more, your more relaxed, calmer and when women are calmer, the energy in the home shifts.  I personally feel a woman’s energy is strong (whether good or bad), we are what make our home run like clockwork, except most of the time we run on a clock with low batteries.  Anger, frustration, depression, guilt, worry, anxiety, sends out and projects an energy that is sending out resistance.  Where peace, calm, love, fun, joy sends out energy that opens up and send out a message of allowing.  People can feel the energy you are projecting.  So think about what the energy feels like in your home…..is it thick, stuck, hard to move through or is it airy and free-flowing?

Our Thoughts Create our Realities

Everything and everyone originates from creative source energy.  We are all energy and so are our thoughts.  As you begin to go within, connect with source and your higher self, you become more aware of how even your thoughts have a frequency and how they affect not only you but the people around you and the situations you bring forth into your life.  Whatever thoughts you are having now, positive or negative will mirror back to you, it is a Universal law.  So to begin working on the most important relationship which is with yourself, take one day to really take notice of your thoughts.  Yes, it may sound exhausting as we have 1,000’s of thoughts per day but once you realize what you are telling yourself, you will begin to see and feel how abusive you really are to YOU.

Most people are extremely critical of themselves, negative, angry, resentful, judgemental, self-sabotaging not only to others but to self.  Half the things you tell yourself you wouldn’t dare say to another person.  But when you begin to catch the self abusive talk flow out or in your mind catch them, release them and begin to replace them with more positive loving thoughts.  What you think about you really do bring about.  So as you begin to change your thoughts, you change your life.  We are the creators of our own realities.  We are so powerful that our thoughts can shape our lives.  Once your thoughts become more positive, you begin to really start the work of realizing your value, self-worth and self-love.

If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change – Wayne Dyer

Your higher power

No one can take your power away unless you let them.  We are powerful beings, every spirit in the physical has a higher power, a higher self, your soul, your spirit that allows you to heal yourself and others, guides you, supports you and allows you to love unconditionally.  Love is the most powerful emotion, it is the only piece we take with us when we leave our physical bodies.  Love is eternal!  Love yourself, be true to yourself, be authentic and no one can ever take that away.  Stand in your truth, be unapologetic for being you.  Believe, trust, have faith in you and then you will have began to connect to your higher power.

Now is the Time for Change

I want to take this moment to acknowledge and speak out about all the chaos that is going on in our world lately.  At times I’ve felt it’s almost too much to bear, out of control…. Not sure if I have any words of wisdom but want to say I’m sorry to all that are suffering, grieving, struggling, traumatized, trying to figure out how to move forward, my prayer is that at some point you feel a glimmer of hope again.

It’s easy for me to not turn on the news and pretend everything is fine in my safe little bubble but even in doing that I feel the sadness, fear and uncertainty of the world.  Real emotions due to real events.  I feel this sadness and know I must do my part, this is why I was called upon.  So I do my part by praying, donating time, items and money where I can.  But also knowing the more I continue with my practices of going within connecting with my higher power, I can create change, a ripple effect and the more of us that do this one day we will see less of this craziness.  Knowing we are all one, even if I wasn’t directly impacted it still hurts my heart.

The universe has been telling me over and over again Now is the time for humanity to rise up to continue as a species that yes we must all come together in communities but we all need to turn inward to be able to truly help others, we must help ourselves, heal ourselves, be mindful, begin to live with the intention that we can turn darkness into light, fear into love, despair into hope.  Where there is hope there is change.  We have become a society that is moving way to fast, focused on how to achieve success by how much we can do or how much we have but it’s people who matter.  And it will always go back to love…but how can we love others when we hate ourselves, when we can’t forgive ourselves and others, when we hold onto resentment, anger and judgement and have so much fear due to feelings of lack and scarcity.

I’ve learned that war, violence, hatred, abuse, etc. all comes of a scarcity mentality, a fear based thinking world.  Yes there are real issues right now that are creating fear.  I am not taking away from the parents that lost a child or a child that lost their parents, their friends, brothers and sisters all I can say is I am so sorry that you have to endure this deep level of pain and my prayers are that you can get through this with the support, help and love from your communities and loved ones.

But if we can begin to think and feel as one and understand the oneness, that there is no separation between you and me, “We” are here together as one!  Now is the time we must unite and come together with the intention to create change.  Individually we become mindful and love intentionally with the same goal of love and peace, change can happen.  It may begin by going within healing our spirit, the inner child within all of us for humanity to begin to realize we are all brothers and sisters no matter our skin color, race, sexual preference, religion or social status.  What we do onto others we do onto ourselves.  So open your heart, stay heart centered, come together as a community with love and we can rise above all…..as one mind, one love, one heart.  Come together now for now is the time for us and for future generations to come, to move further away from darkness and closer to the light.  Now is the time for change!

Are Angels Real?

Until this year although I grew up Catholic, went to church every Sunday as a child (mainly because my parents dragged me there, never paid any attention to the actual service.  Most Sundays my mom had to take me outside because I was laughing too much and disturbing the people around us, being an annoyance).  I don’t think I ever put much thought into what created us or if there was more to life than what I saw in front of me…. I take that back, I do remember as a child my sister and I would talk about what was there before us…. a black hole, darkness, air, where did the trees come from, the sky, the animals, people?  How did all this around us come about.  I’m not even sure if my sister remembers those conversations but I do.  I guess inside I figured there had to be someone who created all but again not sure if I had faith.

Growing up loss became normal, a part of my life, every year someone died or several people.  Some from diseases such as cancer, Aids, disasters, car accidents, drug overdoses, suicide, etc.  I used to have a strange reaction towards death, I don’t think I really cried I felt more sadness and pain, feeling the emotions of the people left behind. Until I loss my brother-in-law at the age of 32, he was more than my brother-in-law he was my brother, family member, my good friend…..so unexpected and that was the death that rocked my world.  As I watched my sister and her 1-year-old son pull the pieces together I questioned if there was a God and I was angry.  I had lost faith in faith.  As the years went on I used to talk to my brother in-law often as if I knew he was still around, I prayed to him more than a God, asked for signs and always received them (never jolted, never shocked when the lights would flicker on and off, or the fan would go crazy, the blue dragon-fly that hung around our house and came in one night and sat on my husbands finger as it tilted its little head and smiled at me and we just knew it was him). The strange thing is even then I still didn’t think much about if there was life after death but I never questioned the signs either, I would ask, always receiving, smile and say thank you. Maybe back then I just thought it was wishful thinking that I just talked away after each sign was given, like most of us do.

At some point in everyone’s life I think it is natural to wonder are Angels really real? And just like me it is usually asked when you lose a person that holds a special place in your heart (or several people).  Hoping to receive something, a sign, anything, desperate to reconnect in some way.  So how can we talk away what we ask for and then are given, knowing there are too many of us that have seen or experienced something that couldn’t be explained.  But now I know without a doubt that there is more than what most of our physical eyes can see….God, Angels, Ascended masters, Arch Angels, beings of light energy.  I’m still not sure if I believe in one organized religion but now I do have faith in a higher power and from my daily experiences I can tell you Angels are very real.

 

A little prayer

If you knew who walked beside you on the path that you have chosen fear would be impossible….

Dear God,

I have a profound desire to feel a deeper connection with you.  Please help me to clear the pathways of communication so I may easily receive your loving messages of divine guidance.  My desire is to hear clearly, see clearly and feel clearly.  Help me understand and have a clear knowing of what the messages mean.  Thank you for all your help as I journey toward a deeper connection with the divine. Please remove all blocks that hinder my ability to hear and see.  Uplift me and help raise my vibration so I can feel your messages, divine guidance and experience the clear knowing so I can take action accordingly to move into my purpose and be of service.