Sensitivity, Unity & Oneness

Why is all this happening?

A couple of years ago I was told I’ve done this before, we all have, in prior lifetimes. Perhaps playing a different part but we have been here before, chose to forget and now it’s time to remember the truth. This time, we are making different choices. Choices that are promoting and inviting change. Transforming both Individually and Collectively. As Carolyn Myss states “what is in the one is in the whole”. So when I heal and transform so do you and vice versa. And on some level, what one does affects the whole because we are all connected.

The past couple of weeks have been challenging. I can feel the pain of the planet. I can feel it moving through me, a weight and heaviness. As my body is processing and releasing, which has not felt good at times, even with all my practices I’m feeling it all. The difference now is I’m aware of what is happening on the micro and macro level and the necessity of it all. Self care has to be ramped up. For me this includes a list of go to practices, deep breaths throughout the day, meditation, Reiki, Tapping/EFT, Kundalini Yoga, walks outside, journaling, rest, even just pausing for a moment to notice what I’m feeling, and more. I do these practices to feel more balanced and to embody more of a state of well-being. Being gentle with myself and understanding this is a part of ascension.

As the great awakening continues we become more aware and more sensitive to embody the 5th dimensional Unity Conciousness (Christ Consciousness). If you look at your pets that you love so much, they have heightened sensitivity as a survival mechanism (an acute sense of smell, hearing, they can feel the vibration of thunder, of a storm coming way before we do). As do we, but as humans this is not just for survival but will allow us to connect and create in ways we may never have thought possible. And although this sensitivity can feel like a burden at times it is also one of our greatest super powers.

You will be able to use the subtle senses to tap into others in a way that unites us. We already feel each others pain, happiness, joy, sadness, fear, etc which allows us to have more compassion for each other. But without having an understanding of this we easily become overwhelmed by all that we feel.

I do my practices to be able to bring balance to my nervous system to be able to handle the heightened sensitivity that I experience and understand the volume will be turning up over the next couple of years. So I want to continue to raise my vibration to be in alignment with the energy of abundance, gratitude, joy, love. Being sensitive allows me to read people’s energy (with permission of course), be able to travel through time, travel to other planes of consciousness, connect with others on a soul level and connect with souls that have left the physical plane as well. I gain clarity and the ability to discern, what is truth and what is false. To be able to know my energy versus anothers that has entered into my field. These are tools we will all need to remember (or learn) for our survival. This will no longer be optional.

If you need help to gain clarity, to heal your mind, body and spirit, to bring balance to the whole self, then please reach out. Book a Reiki session or card reading. Find support, healthy ways to navigate and adapt during these times of ascension. It may feel brutal at times but there are ways to give yourself the much needed self care and balance that your soul is guiding you to.

The Collective Shadow

During the Dark Night of the Soul there was a voice I heard that taunted me, it told me what it looked like to induce fear in me. It was half man and half beast, it’s feet were huge covered with long shaggy hair, it looked like a monster and if I made eye contact with the beast I could be possessed forever (or so it told me). I would try not to look, as it said “I’m standing behind the curtain, go ahead look and you will see me”. As I took a quick glance I could see the curtain bulged out and it said “don’t look down or else you will see my feet” and when I glanced it laughed like a child, saying “you can’t see me, I fooled you”. The TV was on and in trying to act normal in front of my husband as The Big Bang Theory played, me starring blankly at the screen, not hearing any word of the show because I was internally battling the beast, my internalized fear. It told me it would go into my subconcius mind and begin to bring things up that I had hidden, one by one memories, secrets, shadows that I had pushed away that caused me to feel guilt, shame and pain. Like the death of my brother in law, things I did as a young adult, as a child, my fear of spiders, addiction, sex, parenting, mistakes I made, and when I couldn’t take it any more I threatened the beast by saying I will tell my husband what was going on within my mind and the beast knowing it would loose it’s power and hold over me the moment I spoke up, reminded me what would happen if I shared and told “your husband will have a heart attack and you will have another stroke.” I began to feel my arm go numb, and my face began to droop as if the beginning of a stroke, and in my mind I agreed, ok I won’t tell. I had become a prisoner to my own fear, my ego, my lower self, a possession due to giving up my power to the part of me that thrives off my secrets, shame and guilt, that if left unattended becomes so large like a scary entity. The part that we are so afraid of facing but that will unconsciously control us like a puppet until we do.

I share this story because this feeds off of our shame, fear, guilt, our secrets that we hide but all share. Right now there is a collective death going on, the death of the Collective Ego, this part of ascension that is so painful, it’s where we loose most of our physical assets, jobs, homes, relationships, money, ideals outside of us that we made real by placing a lot of value on them. That come to the surface so we can be stripped down to the only things that truly matter. This is where old programming has to breakdown, literally! Where we will feel abandoned by God and the Ego will try to hold on for dear life, will have us doing things that seem so insane and out of character in ways that people around us may not even recognize who we are any longer because it’s not you.

If we understand this, perhaps we can have empathy and compassion towards the people in the world right now that are playing into the fear, reactions based on feeling locked up, controlled, out of control, loss, lost, scared and confused. The fight, flight, freeze survival mechanism is large at play but the more we are aware, the more we can connect to our Higher Self, the True and only Self, the more we can surrender to the process, and let go of the illusions that we made from this false world that has nothing that we need or want.

The New Earth is a new way of thinking, a shift in perception, an opportunity to thrive in a higher frequency of Quantum energy where we are no longer controlled by the puppeteer, the Ego. The 5th dimension allows for complete alignment with God, with Love and to let go of the love that we have redefined and made out of control. But now there is a connection to true, pure Love of our Soul, our higher self, our God Self, the only one Self that exists, again everything else is an illusion that we have made. Take your power back, go within, and become the alchemist of life.

There are many ways in which we can do this. Begin by being extremely curious, ask Why constantly, question everything. Journal and write your feelings out on paper. Meditate, exercise, walk outside, shut your phone down and the news off. Get still and get in touch with that part of you that wants you to grasp the opportunity to heal and rise up above the midst of all the chaos.

Zombie life vs. Awaken life?

This half way point of awareness, of the change that is happening, a piece of me wanting to go back to the old version of pushing, making things happen, forcing until I’m done, depleted and physically just can’t do anymore. But my soul wants me to pause, wait, stop, allow for a moment, to take in the progress, the changes, the shifts that I have created, that we created together. This does not mean non action, in fact this is the most productive action I’ve taken. I’m no longer running on stress, on anxiety, and no longer have my head completely in the clouds, but aware. Awareness, being awake is not easy at all times. In fact it’s a complete reality check, no more excuses, no more lies and that means I no longer can lie to myself. I can no longer pretend I’m happy if I’m not, I no longer feel comfortable in the discomfort I became accustomed to. I have to walk the talk. There was a point where I was in an almost constant spiritual state of bliss and I lived at a really high vibration for a while, which is great as long as I remember to stay grounded, aware and without spiritual bypassing. Inspired writing was what I presented but was I truly following the advice I was giving?….Not always. That I found, doesn’t fly with my soul, with the Universe period. And that is a path I believe we are all being led on.

As we all begin to awaken and become more aware we have choices to make. Do you go on pretending doing what no longer feels right because it is what you’ve been taught or do you uncover the false self and allow the true self to emerge?

One night I experienced what I call the zombie night, during a time in my life where it was as if a portal opened up and I had inside access and was shown what is playing out in the Universe and what will be unfolding. Where I heard the sound of zombies, it was so intense I had to put ear plugs in my ears because I didn’t want to hear the truth. So I avoided, tried to shut out what was being presented to me which is, that most of us are choosing a zombie life. We are in these amazing vehicles called bodies and we have the potential for greatness, in fact we don’t even have to go after it, the greatness exists now but we are numbing out, doing everything we can to not feel, not to face each other let alone ourselves, and literally walking around like zombies half the time with our faces in multiple devices and don’t even remember how we got from point A to point Z.

I mention this because there is a huge turning point, I feel it, like a major shift is going to happen again. The last huge transition I went through pushed me beyond what was “humanly” possible. Or so I thought. I saw, heard, felt past the physical senses and was shown the beyond, what is possible as multi sensory and multi dimensional beings, what we have access to and what we are capable of. Little by little I’m shown more and more. Things such as, I have a thought and focus on that thought creating an action but not a physical one, making things happen with my mind, energetically. Simple things like changing radio stations, or lowering the volume or from the bathroom turning on the coffee maker in the kitchen. I was shown that I could either choose to be mind controlled by outside negative forces that don’t always have my best interest in mind such as programmed news outlets, shows, government, politics, genetically modified foods, chemicals, things that are trying to close my pineal gland instead of having it in it’s natural state. As well as my other emotional centers (you’ve heard me refer to them as chakras before). I know when they are balanced, I no longer can be controlled but can have the power to move, change and create things in my life with my mind, my heart, my soul, co-creating with a higher power of love because now I am functioning from a place of perfect coherence. And I am easily able to enter into a state of presence, of neutrality, observation, being the witness without judgment. I’ve seen the impossible and no longer put limits on anything. I’ve seen through the density of walls, other dimensions, this is the stuff you see in science fiction movies except it’s no longer pretend. Just wait and see, things are about to get really real but not in the way you’ve been used to.

As Yogi Bhaghan stated at this time in our lifetime; 1/3 of the population will go insane, 1/3 will die (commit suicide) and 1/3 will awaken. Which one will you choose?