Authenticity- Take your Power Back

Channeled Message 7/23/2020


A journey to uncovering the truth of who I am…our true souls essence.

This journey will be ongoing but at our core we know who we are, the process of transformation and change to get there will be both thrilling and terrifying.

I say this because the pain of not knowing oneself is due to all the patterning and inherited beliefs of others. I was shown through a vision, that many have spent so many years molding into what another expects them to be and we keep trying to live someone else’s life, and are trying to model someone who is also trying to live someone else’s life. A vicious cycle. We have been programmed and mind controlled by forces that do not have humanities best interest at heart. We are not only in a spiritual crisis right now but an identity crisis as well. As little kids we were told “Just be yourself”. To be our self is to know thy Self, the True Self. We must understand that right now in the face of these challenges we are reprogramming and deprogramming false narratives, beliefs and corrupt systems that are breaking down and hold no true power over us. Although they have tried for centuries, now is the time to embody our sovereignty and to take our power back. It’s time to break our silence!!

This audio message came through during my morning practice as I ground, connect to my Higher Self and the Divine Mother. I am being nudged to share.

Serenity &Peace

10 Of Water (The Good Tarot by Colette Baron-Reid)


10 Of Water- Serenity, peace, good fortune, well-being (10 is the energy of completion and firm endings of cycles, manifestation, where we experience concrete results. And water is associated with our emotions, our Heart and the way that our feelings move things along).

All is well with the world and with me. Well-being is my natural state. Everything I need comes to me easily and effortlessly. I feel joy and express it to others as I look around and see all the love that we share. I take pleasure in all I have accomplished. Whatever attention I receive or don’t receive, I am serene, for I know full well what it took for me get where I am. I celebrate myself and all who traveled the road with me and feel grateful to Spirit for being my companion always.

Twice this week I asked what do I need to know? What is the message you have for me that is for the highest and greatest good? And twice this card was given to me as a message but not just to me but to you as well. At first I hesitated in sharing as it felt insensitive and I felt guilty for feeling good, during this time when so many are feeling so far from peace and well-being. Except this is exactly where I have been and what I have been feeling. In the midst of fear, chaos and uncertainty not just on the planet but within my own home, I feel love, I feel peace and I feel so certain that everything is okay. Yes I have moments of anxiousness but they quickly pass. I am sharing this message because this is what I have been told over and over and over again by the Guides, Angels and my Higher Self. All the hours of selfcare, of going within, of self reflection, of meditation, of yoga, journaling, Self Reiki practice, all the inner work I have done and many times just wanted to give up but was told “Please Vivian don’t give up”. They promised me all this “training”, that I had been doing was with great purpose and will make sense. That we have the technology and this technology exist within us, through our breath, we are upgrading our system. That I will be able to connect with Source and feel love even in the moments that can have most spiraling out of control.

The time is now to begin. As everyone can see systems are breaking down to create new one’s. Everyone wants to go back to normal but ask yourself was our old “normal” truly working? Perhaps we can ask our future selves what would a new “normal” look and feel like for you? Can you include something new or take something out of your daily “normal” routine to bring more peace and balance into your daily life. This is the time to begin to figure out what that may look like for you and your family. With lots of love to all.

Dark Night of the Soul

As I come up to the 2 year mark after my Dark Night of the Soul experience, the Divine guidance I receive is “share the experience”. No more tip toeing around, people are being awoken and some may not make it through unless they know what they are experiencing. Although very difficult, it really is the biggest blessing in disguise and when some of the most profound transformations take place. I compare it to a caterpillar going through it’s many stages of becoming a butterfly. It can not be stopped, otherwise this Divine intervention will not allow your wings to break free from the cocoon and the beautiful butterfly may never fully emerge into her greatness. It’s when we descend into the darkness so the light can be shined upon it. To fully heal our shadows, like an initiation into another layer of our truth. Out of this most uncomfortable experience we are shown the Truth, so our soul can fully emerge and integrate to stay in alignment on our path into our life’s mission. It is the death of the false self (some call it the Ego) to allow the soul to fully integrate and union with God. During this integration process, everything emerges and can feel like one disaster after another where old lifeless patterns are resurfacing again and again so we can stop the B.S. and exam our lives with a fine tooth comb.

Our soul will no longer allow the excuses, will no longer allow us to play small and if we do, we shall not sulk in a corner and feel pity or play the victim any longer. We must accept where we are and who we are. Our soul knows the power we hold within and needs things to be shaken up to wake us out of this sleep walking path that we’ve been on. It is such a bizarre thing to go through and for many this Shamanic initiation process in it’s realness, are shown the mystical parts of life, where we have to stop asking “how did that just happen?”, sometimes we need to accept the miracles of life. Accept that there is higher power greater than us, through true surrender. When we can fully fall to our knees and say “Dear God, I don’t know how to do this”. Which really was the only way I personally was able to get through this process, when I stopped fighting, when I stopped running and stopped hiding and faced the demons. I am in the process of writing about this experience, as part of my creation and to help those going through this spiritual crisis from being diagnosed as a psychological one. More and more people are being possessed by fear so that we can move through it and emerge into the loving, compassionate beings we truly are. As we are all undergoing a massive awakening to heal as the collective to remember the Oneness of Unity Consciousness. The poem below puts the experience in it’s simplest form (I wrote this while deep in the healing process after a period of what most would call psychosis but was really was my awakening. I was in and out of different realities, dimensions, living life on both sides and realize now I was being shown what we are all going through and what is to come).

Dark of the Soul
Ocean waves moving in motion like our never-ending crashing emotions, smashing against the tide when we don’t trust our inner guide,
Everywhere I go, nowhere to hide from the anger and disappointment that I feel inside, the resentment that arises from memories when I felt I didn’t have a voice or a choice.

Would not, could not speak up and out for myself,
At work, at home, it seems everywhere I turn, carefully walking on eggshells, as slowly pieces inside of me began to chip away at all my dreams and desires until I completely lost my way.
Ungrounded, astounded by the tearful, fearful person in the mirror who has lost her natural state to want to create.
Job-less, car-less, emotion-less, devotion-less…….a sad feeling of emptiness.

STOP….Breathe, take a moment to be present, face this fear, do not give it any more power and do not allow all that self-abusive chatter to get louder and louder.
Have I really lost everything or have I just began?
Remembering who I really am.

Through strength, faith and true desire to create, remembering I came here to thrive not just survive.
Live for today and a better tomorrow, leave all the self-doubt and abuse for a positive attitude and a life of gratitude.
I believe in myself, for within is the pure love, truth, the light of my soul, my inner spirit that chose to live Heaven on Earth
With A dream, A desire, beyond expansion with passion and fire.

Compassion

Audio- Self Compassion

Listen to the attached audio message regarding compassion. Release your guilt, shame, insecurity, fear and begin to have compassion for yourself and others. Make the changes in yourself to see the change you want in your life and learn to have more compassion in the process. Is the love you know true love or is your love conditional, obsessive, self-sacrificing, distorted, controlling? Are you sending out love that is defined by the programming and conditioning that you learned or are you giving yourself and others Divine Love!

Netflix- Heal

Documentary Heal on Netflix

I suggest that everyone watches this documentary to gain a deeper understanding of how powerful we truly are. And how our emotions, our thoughts and beliefs are a huge contributor to our health both physical and mental. How energy healing can play a big role in bringing balance to our lives amongst other alternative ways of healing. I lived for years with depression and anxiety. I tried so many different medications that covered the symptoms and although yes they helped to stable me they also caused other problems like low sex drive, feelings of emptiness/ no emotions and to get off these medications once your on them can be extremely challenging.

We are on this journey of life to feel and experience all kinds of things but sometimes what we think is helping us can also be hurting us. And yes I do agree that many medications can be helpful and have their place. But now is the time that we need to be open to other methods of healing. If you would have mentioned energy healing a couple of years ago I would have thought you were weird but now through several experiences I have been shown and gifted the most beautiful healing experiences. From stopping smoking after over 30 years; cold turkey with no side affects and no cravings or desire to ever go back to being a smoker. To helping and eliminating the aches and pains that come with the autoimmune disease of Lupus. To helping with anxiety, depression, bringing a sense a calmness back into a persons life that didn’t even know was possible. I could go on and on about the benefits of energy work/healing that help to bring balance into our everyday lives.

We are living in this fast paced modern world and need to find ways to limit stress and add practices of self care. And through these self care practices they will assist to uncover the truth of who we are and learn to love accept and approve of ourselves to bring us back to a feeling of wholeness.

I am whole and complete!